Drifting somewhere in the vast

It's been a while since I posted something about my writing progress, so there you have it:

26635 / 35000 words. 76% done!

Which feels about right this time. The word count might vary up to 36K or 37K (don't you dare laughing, Lou! :P), but I'm slowly crawling towards the showdown. Sometimes I get fleeting moments of panic when I just think about what I've written and think "no, this is complete bullshit and stupid and full of plotholes and you should stick to your oneshot-ramblings of fanfic". Then I remember that I have written 60 pages and think: "okay, fuck you, this beast will get finished no matter what, because I will NOT have wasted almost half a year of my life on this for nothing."

Ever reached a point where you just kind of - lose your momentum? And you look at what you've written and everything seems completely pointless and shitty? Like you've just been stabbing in the dark and it's all wrong and you feel like you need to rewrite everything to make it okay? And then you need to grit your teeth together, because you've come too far to give up now, but it's so fucking hard and DEAR GOD WHEN IS IT OVER WHY CAN'T I BE A FAST WRITER LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IN FANDOM.

Does anyone happen to know what the stick is called? The one Tony uses to give Bruce an electric shock?

So, one of the cool things about working online and doing design stuff is that you get to surf on a lot of funny designing sites with great pictures. Here are a few of the things I stumbled upon, plus some other stuff that is ~relevant~ to me.

Paintings of Russian Generals with celebrety faces.
My favourites are Sir Ian McKellen and - YIS - Robert Downey Jr.

Some very awesome Avengers illustrations.

Minimalist superhero posters.

The Many Faces Of
This is a site that composes blog entries about actors in some of their roles under a certain topic. Like, Alan Rickman playing villains. It's really great and funny and there are even awesome statistics and graphics to support their theories. XD Be sure to check out Rickman and DiCaprio, but beware spoilers if you haven't seen their movies yet.

Homosexualität im Fußball: "Wir brauchen keinen schwulen Märtyrer"
"Du schwule Sau" oder "Du Schwuchtel" wird jeder Fußball-Fan im Stadion schon einmal gehört haben. Das Wort "schwul" wird im Fußball als Verhöhnung der Gegner eingesetzt. Im Gegensatz zur Politik oder der Unterhaltungsbranche scheint der deutsche Fußball eine schwulenfreie Szene zu sein. Wir sprachen mit Mario Weiße, dem Chef des schwulen/lesbischen Fanklubs "Queerpass Bayern" über homosexuelle Fans, Outing und die Probleme in deutschen Stadien.

Yeah, I know I'm pretty much out of the footie fandom, but things like that still keep my attention and despite gmx being a horrible site, this is actually a decent article. Nothing quite new, but readable.

And last but not least: I wrote the first ~350 words of my fic for the Deutsch Big Bang. \o/ Haha, I know, it's not a lot, but considering the fact that I've been dancing around this for almost 2 months, this is huge progress. One of the reasons why I finally started writing might have been this tumblr post WHICH IS PRETTY MUCH THE START AND THE CLIMAX OF MY STORY. Asdfjlsjdlfkd. BRB, watching those gifs forever.

What English literature classic do you think Pepper Potts would read? And with read, I mean really enjoy it and re-read it several times? (It should be something pre 1940-ish, so something Steve would know.)

Being the last one to leave the office is pretty much one of the most depressing things I know ... That being said, I hate taking over for co-workers on vacation. Meh.

Also, uhm, whoever sent me that anonymous glass heart - thanks? I have really no idea who it was, but it brightened my day a little.

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